Things I've Never Said

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“My dreams are the worst I’ve ever had. Images of the Winter Soldier fold in on each other. I see things I forgot happened. Like a door unlocking in my mind. Torture… slaughter… and training others in their use. So much horror. I wake up vomiting and don’t feel much better afterwards. My bad dreams linger, but I wouldn’t expect anything else.”

“But if you stay angry all the time, and you prey on that one emotion, and you keep flexing it like a muscle, and that’s the only muscle, you have to wonder what would happen. So, I don’t know if I’m making any sense…”

“I stopped being me such a long time ago, I can’t even remember who that was. I guess the only thing that makes me feel like myself these days is when I’m not.”

“Wipe Him.” (Alexander Pierce)

#THIS IS THE VERY WORST THING#OKAY?#BECAUSE HE JUST GOT STEVE BACK#AND FOR A SECOND HE WAS WILLING TO BELIEVE HE MIGHT LIVE THROUGH THIS#BUT NOW THAT STEVES TRAPPED#BUCKY IS REALIZING NOT ONLY THAT STEVE COULD DIE#BUT THAT HE WILL AS WELL#BECAUSE GOD KNOWS HE’LL STAND HERE AND BURN RATHER THAN LEAVE STEVE BEHIND ~Talán mert az életemnél is jobban szeretem és inkább meghalnék Steve oldalán/vele együtt/érte mintsem egy olyan világban éljek, ahol Ő nem létezik többé?~

“She made me feel human again, and they punished us both for that.”

I have survived so many fires,
            I can no longer tell,
if I am alive,
            or if I’m still burning.

“But I know him.” (Bucky)

“He’s not responsible for his actions… not in control…”

DO YOU KNOW WHICH ONE I AM?